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Don’t ask me out, I can’t love again

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Taiwo Adenike Adeola

I have been wrapped in the comfort of a womb that carried me
The metronome of my heartbeat beats the drum that I hope the world we dance to
Until tears pierced my blind eye to see the reality of the world outside her womb
The stench of deceit was all over the hand that carried me……
I searched for love in his eyes, but I found none…
I know there was little like a ray of light in a deep hole, but it was covered, covered by his impatience, cos he couldn’t wait to leave me, to abandon me and never to look back.

Then life began to unfold itself like a long nightmare
Life was supposed to be bright, but my corner of it was dark like theoretical mass
I realized, I realized that life was fifty shades of darkness
And my own private world was fifty shades darker.

Daddy! Daddy! I hear other children call..
I hear them call out, and it was like a song
A beautiful piece of music to my hears
A beautiful piece of music, accompanied by a masculine instrumental voice answering “daughter”
Oh I wish someone will call me daughter
I wished my daddy carries me and throw me in the air..
I wished he would catch me in midair and envelope me in a warm embrace
Oh I wished, he was there, he was there to sing Jingle over like a motor to me..
But wishes were not horses… So I could only hope to fly

I felt lonely, mum was never enough, though she tried to be..
My already dark world became darker like abyss
There was no dad’s love to light it up

I remember, I remember countless nights, countless cold nights I wept on my flat 2/4 bed
I felt rejected, I felt lonely
I felt lone like a lost lamb in a thick forest
I was scared, scared of all the bullies around, those wicked big bad wolf..
They knew no one would come to my rescue
They know I don’t have a dad, a dad that will scare them like an angry Shepherd would scare would scare a wolf from his lamb..
They knew I was a poor little child..
Daughter of the poor woman..
Poor young woman, famous for owing debt in every provision store.
So they never stopped bullying me..
Echoes of their wicked laughter followed me like shadow even to dream land.

Mum tried, but she was not just enough…
I needed dad so badly… For 14 years, I hoped and pray
My heart was used to the rhythms of the wall clock…
It was used to the tick-tock sound..
I checked the time every now and then..
Believing, believing my dad would appear suddenly like a thief in the night..
I kept hoping.. Kept praying… I kept praying for that the dad that would never come..

Many times, many times we slept on empty stomach..
We kept repeating the routine of the last super every night..
We lived like that poor woman, that poor Zarephat widow in the bible..
Who had no hope for the future..

Then gradually…. Gradually I gave up on my dad..
It was obvious he was not going to come..
That little girl of 14 years dissapered to the past..
That little girl who longed for her dad’s embrace was gone..

I gave up.. Gave into the fire.. My dreams and high hopes
I know… I know I should have fought
I should have fought the dark shadow hovering over me…

But realization… Realization struck me like lightning
He was never going to come… Not now.. Not ever..
He was never going to come to a child he considered bad lock..
Bad lock born out of wedlock..

I felt like a failure.. as if I have failed life greated examination
14 years ago seem like yesterday before my eyes..
Just yesterday when love so bright.. So bright like sun flower danced in my eyes..

But now… Now I’ve grown into a woman..
I tried not to remember my dad again.. I tried hard to forget him..
But my height, face, and skin color reminds so much of him.. To my dismay…
But the love I had for him has withered..
That beauty sun flower of yesterday has shrunken…
Shrunken cos of lack of sunlight…
It stopped.. It stopped growing, photosynthesis could not take place..
How could it when my father was the photosynthesis.. the photosynthesis my love life needed to grow..
But he abandoned me.. Abandoned me in the darkest corner of the world..
And now, now.. I’ve given up hope..
I’ve thrown my hope my dream down the drain

Now, now I know I don’t deserve nothing..
Nothing, cos I am a child born out of the wedlock..
So don’t even try to pity me, it’s the last thing I want.

Every night, every night I lie in bed
I lie I’m bed, but I can’t sleep…
On the ledge but I can’t leap

I have words on my tongues, but I can’t speak.. My tongue is glued to my mouth
My lips are sealed
Though I’ve grown.. But that little girl, that poor little girl of yesterday..
That little girl who craved for attention was still in me…

I tried to live happy like others..
But I was not conceived like others..
I was not conceived and born like others…
I was a child born out of wedlock..
A mistake.. A great mistake..

I tried so hard..so hard to keep the fire of love burning..
But it’s like taking a step forward and four steps backward..

It kept going down.. Like a melting candle..
And now the light is off..
I tried to love twice.. My father and the other
The other that I risked a lot for..
But I failed… I failed terribly twice
There should be a medal for failures..

Now, I’ve returned to that dreaded zone..
A place of incarceration… A theoretical mass..
The darkest, deepest part of the dark sea..

I’m drowning… Drowning in this sea of hatred..
I have exhausted my anger… It has run run out of me like water down a drain..
I’m choking…choking with fear, regret, pain, tears,
Tears and the constant fear on my mother’s face..
I tried gasping for air, but the black sea kept dragging me back..
I flapped my hands in the water like a dying butterfly..
I tried…tried raising my head..
Tried raising my head..maybe someone would see me..
Maybe a good Samaritan would save me…
Part of me wants to be saved, the other rejects help..

To me it’s finished like Jesus said on the cross..
But save me…save me if you can.
Taiwo Adenike Adeola.

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How Deji Adeyanju Secured The Release Of Speed Darlington

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How Deji Adeyanju Secured The Release Of Speed Darlington

Detained Nigerian Singer Speed Darlington Released On Bail After Burna Boy’s Petition Alleging Cyberbullying

 

The Nigerian police have released singer, comedian and content creator, Darlington Okoye, popularly known as Speed Darlington, on bail.

Darlington was arrested and detained following a petition from fellow musician, Damini Ogulu, better known as Burna Boy, alleging cyberstalking.

The controversial Akpi musician was released to lawyer Deji Adeyanju after meeting conditions stipulated by police at the Inspector General of Police Intelligence Response Team’s Department in the Guzape area of Abuja.

SaharaReporters learnt on Tuesday that Speed Darlington was arrested last Friday.

Adeyanju earlier on Tuesday told SaharaReporters that he had seen the petition written against Darlington by afrobeat musician, Burna Boy

Speed Darlington was arrested in Lagos and taken to various formations in the state before he was taken to Abuja and detained by the IRT team, which accused him of cyberstalking Burna Boy.

Adeyanju noted that there was nothing in the petition to warrant Darlington’s arrest.

“I have met Speed Darlington and he’s in good spirits, we are working to get him released on bail as soon as possible,” Adeyanju told SaharaReporters earlier on Tuesday.

A police ACP investigating the case told Adeyanju that the police could not release a copy of the petition to him but allowed the lawyer read and digest the content.

Nigerian Police Detain Musician Speed Darlington Since Friday In Abuja After Petition By Burna Boy

Darlington’s mother, known as Queen, had earlier alleged that Burna Boy and his team were responsible for her son’s disappearance.

In a video message, Queen narrated how her son’s gateman informed her that Speed Darlington was taken away by Burna Boy and his team.

Queen had begged Burna Boy to release her son, kneeling down in the video to show her desperation.

Her plea came after Speed Darlington was declared missing.

“Nigerians please come and help me, my son, Speed Darlington has been missing for over four days now, after he made a video about Burna Boy and Diddy.

“Burna Boy came to his house with his squad and police and they arrested Akpi. Please, Nigerians, Akpi is my only son. Please, Nigerians help me and beg Burna Boy to release my son,” she said.

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EJEMU OF IGBARA-OKE KINGDOM CONGRATULATES H.I.M OLOWA ON HIS RECENT APPOINTMENT

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*EJEMU OF IGBARA-OKE KINGDOM CONGRATULATES H.I.M OLOWA ON HIS RECENT APPOINTMENT

 

 

The Ejemu of Igbara-Oke Kingdom, Snr. High Chief (Barr.) Oyebanji Abuloye congratulates His Imperial Majesty, Oba (Dr.) Francis Adefarakanmi Agbede, Ogidi lll, Ilufemiloye I, Paramount Ruler and Proscribed Authority, Olowa of Igbara-Oke Kingdom on his appointment as the pioneer Director General of Council of Traditional Rulers, South-West Nigeria.

Senr. High Chief Ejemu in his congratulatory letter dated 18th September, 2024 stated that the appointment by Arole Oduduwa, His Imperial Majesty, Ooni Adeyeye Enitan Ogunwusi, Ojaja ll, Ooni of Ife and the Co-Chair of National Council of Traditional Rulers Nigeria is an unrestrained testament of Olowa” s resilience and versatility as a tangible force amongst the traditional rulers in Yoruba land.

He posited as well that his promotion of Yoruba tradition and culture laced with pragmatic leadership as a notable first class king is unquestionable.

He acknowledged that since ascension of H.I.M Olowa to the throne, he has displayed exceptional commitment to the projection of Yoruba tradition and culture, and he has also become a beacon of development, progress, peace and unity in his kingdom and beyond. These qualities, Aba’ Jemu said are no doubt the ultimate pivotal to his new unprecedented appointment.

He finally prayed that the God Almighty will continue to keep, uphold and sustain him as he delivers his mandate as the pioneer and pathfinder Director General of National Council of Traditional Rulers South-West, Nigeria.

E-signed
Dupe Arinye
Director Media & Publicity for S.H. C Ejemu

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Primeboy threatens legal action against Mohbad’s mother

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Primeboy threatens legal action against Mohbad’s mother

Primeboy threatens legal action against Mohbad’s mother

 

Owodunni Ibrahim aka Primeboy, who is a close associate of the late singer, Ilerioluwa Aloba aka Mohbad,  has countered the claims of the deceased’s mother, Abosede Adeyemo-Aloba, on what transpired between him and her son.

According to Primeboy, Mohbad’s mother accused him of having an altercation with Mohbad while he was alive during an online interview.

In a statement signed by his lawyer, Akinpelu Ogunbona, and seen by PUNCH Metro on Saturday, Primeboy quoted Mohbad’s mother as saying that he consistently complained about Mohbad’s neglect since he rose to stardom.

“In the said interview, you alleged that our client always fought the late Mohbad and consistently complained about his neglect by the late Mohbad since the said late Mohbad rose to stardom. You also alleged that our client was advised to run away after the death of the late Mohbad so as not to be suspected regarding the death,” the statement read in part.

 

While describing her submission as a defamation of character,  the singer alleged that her actions were deliberate.

He added that this had affected the love he enjoyed from his fans.

“Your actions are deliberate to injure and traduce the integrity of our client who is a rising star in the music industry and your allegations in the interview have greatly and negatively impacted the affection and love being enjoyed by our client from his fans and well-wishers around the world,” the statement added.

 

Primeboy however requested Mohbad’s mother to retract her statement within seven days.

 

He also threatened to take legal action should he fail to do so.

Efforts to reach Mohbad’s mother for a reaction proved abortive as calls made to her phone were not responded to as of Sunday evening. A text message sent to her had yet to be responded to as of the time this report was filed.

In August, Ogunbona argued the application on behalf of Ibrahim Owodunni aka Primeboy, stating that there were new issues both Wunmi Aloba and the police needed to shed light upon to give a clearer picture of what killed the singer.

According to the statement, their request to be called by the counsel was to make clear some ambiguous statements regarding the fight the singer’s wife alleged happened in the house.

The coroner accordingly adjourned for the order to be complied with and the witnesses to be brought to court on the next adjourned date.

Mohbad died at the age of 27, on September 12, 2023, with circumstances surrounding his death sparking controversies on social media.

 

His death also led to the arrest of Naira Marley and controversial Lagos socialite, Balogun Eletu, also known as Sam Larry, amongst others.

The singer’s body was on September 21, 2023, exhumed for autopsy to unravel the cause of his death.

 

 

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