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‘I used to masturbate after having prayers’ + How i stopped it – Kenyan Church leader reveals

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Here is a man, Frederick Beuchi who was addicted to masturbation and pornography, even as a church leader, he wrote;

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The first time I watched blue movies was way back when I was in class 8 when we sneaked with my friends to a local video hall. I had never experienced it. Having been raised in strict Christian background I vowed to my 13-year-old self never to go back to watching blue movies. That night and for several weeks I was haunted as the pictures from the blue movies kept playing in my mind.

In high school, I was an active CU member. In fact, I was appointed as CU chairman in form two.

But towards the end of form two, I would see people on Saturdays watching movies in our TV hall. One night I had stayed behind to read, so as I left the hall to dormitories at around 1 am, I saw that TV was still. When I peeped to see what they were watching, right on my face as pornographic movies.

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I quickly walked away. Here’s the problem I could not stop thinking about it. I finally yielded to the pressure. I was so eager for the weekends. But since I was a CU chairman and I had a character to uphold I had to be clever.

So I would sneak up to the window and feed my mind with the images. It’s dark, it’s late, I’m wondering what if the askari comes and find me hanging on the window.

My grades went low and my concentration in class fizzled out.

During holidays, that became the trend. I remember one time in form three my friend and I were accidentally locked inside the computer lab. To me that was it! The whole night I was hopping from one website to the other.

I cleared my high school, and thank God my grades were good by my standards!

After doing a course in shipping management, I got a job in a company in Mombasa. At that time, I could not help it. I was a slave of pornography.

Here’s the twist, back at home I was appointed as the youth leader in our local church. I lead church services, I talked with them, but inside I was a mess.

In my first job, there was nothing else that I was doing on my desk besides watching pornography. It did not help that they had pretty fast internet. I would quickly finish my work to get back to my hobby.

That job lasted for only four months after a big blunder that cost the company a fortune. This was after hours of watching sexual material.

My self-esteem was really low, I couldn’t even get a girlfriend because in my mind I thought they would know what I was doing in secret.

In my second job, same thing, same behaviour. In fact, it moved from bad to worse. I had started having severe headaches at this time. I would keep taking painkillers. I started getting hallucinations.

When someone was talking to me, I’d blankly be staring at empty space. Then I would scream, to chase away pictures. This happened a lot of time.

But in 2013, my sister’s epileptic condition had gotten worse as well.

I turned prayers, but every time I would backslide back to my vice. There’s a time I watched pornography for over 8 hours. Obviously masturbating in the bathroom, feeling bad and still going back to it. I was chained.

Every time I watched pornography, I would masturbate: seeking self-satisfaction

That really affected me, I would be weak, feeling guilty, self-shame and clearly, my self-esteem was at low.

You see, I couldn’t open up to anyone for fear of being judged.

I remember my prayer on this particular day. I asked God to exchange my addiction with bhang.

I had friends who were addicted to the substance, and they looked happy! I was stressed. Perhaps it would calm me down.

On that day I think I was at the end of the road. My phone was the first victim and a voice told me that I had to share my story.

The following weekend we had a youth kesha in my local church and was by default the MC. Funny thing is that the church was unusually full. So I asked if anyone had something to share. No one was standing. Silence

I found myself telling the congregation that I had something to share.

There was pin-drop silence as I narrated my story. I detailed my account in an intense one-hour long narration. You could hear paper drop. “What’s he talking about” their eyes seemed to ask me

After an hour of sharing. “I have a feeling God has begun the healing journey with me, I don’t know how many of us would like to begin this journey with me,” I asked.

Nothing.

Even my closest friends did not come close to me. I was like the plague. They started judging me, they did not want to be associated with porn guy.

I lived with that stigma for a couple of months standing up to the rebuke of telling my story.

But a certain pastor in Mombasa helped me with advice in series of meetings. I was in a journey back to recovery.

But on my end, the struggle had just begun and it was not easy. Sometimes I could share my story, and still, watch the videos at night.

Enough was enough.

I met a guy from Teens Development Initiative that ran counselling in high school. They decided to include me as part of their team. We did over 60 schools with storytelling taking centre stage.

Without realizing it, that period had helped me heal. I had stopped watching pornographic material.

My life had been crowded by either the teen initiative or epilepsy awareness events.

I tell my story to encourage people that it’s possible to unchain from difficult vices. Refocus your mind to less harmful things.

I would later be appointed as a board member at National Epilepsy Coordination board for my efforts in creating awareness and reaching out to the affected.

Seeking help for my sister really helped me evade the vice that was eating me up.

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ASR AFRICA SET TO COMMENCE THE CONSTRUCTION ABDUL SAMAD RABIU HOSTEL BLOCK FOR THE FEDERAL UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY, MINNA, NIGER STATE

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ASR AFRICA SET TO COMMENCE THE CONSTRUCTION ABDUL SAMAD RABIU HOSTEL BLOCK FOR THE FEDERAL UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY, MINNA, NIGER STATE

 

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Sahara Weekly Reports That The Abdul Samad Rabiu Africa Initiative (ASR Africa) is set to commence the construction of a state-of-the-art hostel block for the Federal University of Technology, Minna. The project, which is being executed under the philanthropic initiative of the Chairman of BUA Group, Abdul Samad Rabiu (CFR, CON), will provide contemporary hostel accommodation for undergraduate students within the university’s main campus. The proposed hostel facility will accommodate 108 students with other auxiliary facilities such as laundries, kitchenettes, common rooms, and the warden’s room.

 

 

 

 

ASR AFRICA SET TO COMMENCE THE CONSTRUCTION ABDUL SAMAD RABIU HOSTEL BLOCK FOR THE FEDERAL UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY, MINNA, NIGER STATE 

 

 

 

 

Speaking at the groundbreaking event, the Vice Chancellor of the University, Prof Faruk Adamu Kuta, expressed joy for having the University as one of the beneficiaries of the ASR Africa Tertiary Education Grant Scheme. He extended the University’s appreciation to the Chairman of ASR Africa and the BUA Group, Abdul Samad Rabiu and added that upon completion, a large number of students will have access to hostel accommodation thereby reducing the number of students that are exposed to insecurity and other vices outside the university campus.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In his response, Dr. Ubon Udoh, the Managing Director of ASR Africa, affirmed the excellent reputation of the University of Minna which ranked amongst the top 10 Nigerian universities and top 2500 in the world by Webometrics. He applauded the management of the university for prioritizing the security of their students amidst the institution’s quantum of needs. In his words, “The choice of this project will facilitate the relocation of the university’s temporary accommodations back into the main campus”. Dr Udoh urged the student to ensure proper use of the building which is constructed with state-of-the-art facilities.

 

 

 

 

ASR AFRICA SET TO COMMENCE THE CONSTRUCTION ABDUL SAMAD RABIU HOSTEL BLOCK FOR THE FEDERAL UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY, MINNA, NIGER STATE 

 

 

 

 

 

The hostel accommodation is designed to have an apartment styled accommodations with each room having an en-suite bath and water closet facilities. This model of each room having its independent convenience and shower has been found to engender hygiene and a sense of responsibility amongst the students which is what the university aim to achieve among its students.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

About ASR Africa

 

 

ASR Africa is the brainchild of African Industrialist, Philanthropist and Chairman of BUA Group, Abdul Samad Rabiu, the Abdul Samad Rabiu Africa Initiative (ASR Africa) was established in 2021 to provide sustainable, impact-based, homegrown solutions to developmental issues affecting Health, Education and Social Development within Africa.

 

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Emerging Nollywood Actress, Lawrence Valerie Ebere, is an entertainer per excellence, she is also a model, dancer, and content creator

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Emerging Nollywood Actress, Lawrence Valerie Ebere, is an entertainer per excellence, she is also a model, dancer, and content creator.

 

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Sahara Weekly Reports She graduated from the university of Benin city, studied Mathematics and economics. She had her primary Education in Chris flourish children School, Alakuko-Alagbado, Lagos state. She had her Secondary Education at Lord’s college, Casso, Alagbado Lagos, she later completed her secondary education at Adeoye international College, Off idiroko road, sango Otta, Ogun state.

 

 

 

Emerging Nollywood Actress, Lawrence Valerie Ebere, is an entertainer per excellence, she is also a model, dancer, and content creator. 

She graduated from the university of Benin city, studied Mathematics and economics. She had her primary Education in Chris flourish children School, Alakuko-Alagbado, Lagos state. She had her Secondary Education at Lord’s college, Casso, Alagbado Lagos, she later completed  her secondary education at  Adeoye international College, Off idiroko road, sango Otta, Ogun state.

 Lawrence Valerie was born  into the family of Mr and Mrs Lawrence Otabor, and she’s the last child  of a family of 6.

 Originally from Delta state, ika-south local government, Agbor, but born and brought up in Lagos state, Alakuko-Alagbado and later her family moved to Sango Otta, Ogun state.  

Ebere completed her National youth Service Corp in March, 2023.

 This beautiful and talented act joined the theatre industry in 2018 in Benin city while schooling when she performed on stage at different indoor and outdoor school events, She started featuring on Tv screen in the year 2020 in Lagos, She is a member of the 2nd intake of Ebony life creative Academy for the 2023 batch, where she received extensive formal training. She won the award of Best supporting female Actress from their short film “IMOLE”. She has always had passion for acting from a very young age, She finds herself re-enacting a scene she just saw from a movie in front of the mirror in her house, One of Her favorite hobby is being in front of the Camera and her Favorite line to hear is “ACTION”. She has featured in movie  projects like the award winning Amvca movie “Leaked”, Netflix movie like Shanty town, Cinema movies like Battle on Buka street, Movies that appeared on African magic like Dilemma, Mr wonderful, My siblings and I, Rok movies like Love lace, Single ladies and YouTube movies like A mother’s lie, Visa on Arrival, My dad and I, just us, chilled revenge, three of us, and so many more. She has done a commercial for Zenith bank, Modelled for some big clothing brands like House of Sota, She is committed to achieving the highest standard of performance and she's always willing to listen and learn from others, She is every producer’s and director’s delight. She is energetic, prepared to go the extra mile and is sure to make a real difference to any project she is involved in.  

 She looks forward to achieving greater things and being on every Big Screen.

 

 

 

Lawrence Valerie was born into the family of Mr and Mrs Lawrence Otabor, and she’s the last child of a family of 6.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Originally from Delta state, ika-south local government, Agbor, but born and brought up in Lagos state, Alakuko-Alagbado and later her family moved to Sango Otta, Ogun state.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ebere completed her National youth Service Corp in March, 2023.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This beautiful and talented act joined the theatre industry in 2018 in Benin city while schooling when she performed on stage at different indoor and outdoor school events, She started featuring on Tv screen in the year 2020 in Lagos, She is a member of the 2nd intake of Ebony life creative Academy for the 2023 batch, where she received extensive formal training. She won the award of Best supporting female Actress from their short film “IMOLE”. She has always had passion for acting from a very young age, She finds herself re-enacting a scene she just saw from a movie in front of the mirror in her house, One of Her favorite hobby is being in front of the Camera and her Favorite line to hear is “ACTION”. She has featured in movie projects like the award winning Amvca movie “Leaked”, Netflix movie like Shanty town, Cinema movies like Battle on Buka street, Movies that appeared on African magic like Dilemma, Mr wonderful, My siblings and I, Rok movies like Love lace, Single ladies and YouTube movies like A mother’s lie, Visa on Arrival, My dad and I, just us, chilled revenge, three of us, and so many more. She has done a commercial for Zenith bank, Modelled for some big clothing brands like House of Sota, She is committed to achieving the highest standard of performance and she’s always willing to listen and learn from others, She is every producer’s and director’s delight. She is energetic, prepared to go the extra mile and is sure to make a real difference to any project she is involved in.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

She looks forward to achieving greater things and being on every Big Screen.

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Nigerian Prophet, Tomi Arayomi Heals Man Who Has Been Deaf For 47 Years (VIDEO)

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Popular Nigerian prophet and founder of Rig Nation, Tomi Arayomi has healed an ex-naval officer who has been deaf for 47 years.

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In a video shared on the prophet’s social media page, the ex-naval officer was seen jubilating after he was miraculously healed by God through the hands of Prophet Tomi Arayomi.

The Ex-naval officer confirmed that he had been deaf during his navy days in 1977 and couldn’t hear with one of his ears until God healed him through the ministry of Prophet Tomi Arayomi.

In the video, he was asked to cover the good ear with his finger to further confirm that he could properly hear with the previously bad one and once again, he heard everything that was said clearly.

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